I've recently set up a portrait photography studio in my home and i wanted to share our first go at it. Plus, these evocative french artists are creating things and i think you should check them out https://www.facebook.com/corpsmultiple/
finally i'd like to insert a little haiku for you below. that is all, lots of LOVE to YOU today
true love lives in me
it fortifies my heart first
then the water runs
i realized, I don't actually love myself
i love what i do
i love what i create
i love where i live, my community, my friends, my family, my cat
blah blah blah
with all that, i still haven't found sincere SELF love
and how is that? how can i have an abundance of things in my life and still not feel worthy?
cry me a fucking river right!!
so i've been researching. i know how to do that, and this is what i've found so far:
self love is a state of acceptance FIRST. you can do all the "practice self love things" like, eat all the right things, to make all the things, to have all the things, to BE. ALL. THE. THINGS. but it wont matter. you still won't feel in aw of the beauty of who you are. You'll be looking at yourself, and all the things you've created, wanting to fall for that person in front of you, but you still wont find authentic self love.
so then i thought, "how the hell do I accept myself?"
and why haven't i done that yet?!
if you can't already tell i'm very critical and in that very thought i realized, holy shit I'M ALSO:
sensitive, insecure, anxious, reserved, easily embarrassed, compulsive, emotional....etc
these are things I've known for some time but i've never ACCEPTED. or talked about, or written in a blog post, or have been human, raw and vulnerable enough to share. so i'm sharing right here, and if you've had a conversation with me lately you've probably had deal with a lot of over sharing there too, but the point is...
what is the point?....ok so the point IS:
SHARE who you are! it's so not perfect. it's radically flawed. it's embarrassing. but its YOU. this is acceptance for me. being honest with who i am and sharing that shit. weirdly enough this is MY self love
i know we're all grossed out by now about hearing the term "self love" but I had to get this one out so thanks for being here
Other stuff being that writing can SUCK. What do I say vs what do I want to say? Is this relevant to the photos or who really even cares? I'm hopeful there will be days where I'll have epic stuff to share, maybe pertaining to movement and LIFE, but today is just not one of those. So for now, I looked up a few facts about light to waste just a little bit more of your time:
Did you know the sun is actually white when seen from space because its light is not scattered by our atmosphere?
This one is cool: light has MOMENTUM! what does that mean?! I don't know, but researchers are developing ways to harness the energy to power space travel. fuck yeah
Lastly, I'll end with this cheeky one: a young Sir Isaac Newton stuck needles in his eye sockets to determine if color was coming from outside the eye or from within.
Thanks for being here as I squeeze these out, I know, gross.
Love your comments, love your feed back and love YOU lots. Happy Friday friends!